My best friend teases me that I suck at identifying someone who is flirting with me. This is prbly true as the last guy who flirted with me I actually had to ask him if he was. Yes, I will admit I am socially awkward and do not pick up on cues, signals whatever it’s called. I’m also not very good at returning flirting. I think when I’m flirting I look like Audrey Hepburn when in reality it’s probably more Melissa McCarthy. I am more of a – hey this is what you get when you talk to me. Of course, it’s been 20+ yrs since I have flirted and it is not like riding a bike. I can’t remember how to be flirtatious. But I can tell you what I think and feel.
In the last few weeks I have found I have no problem telling someone exactly what I’m thinking. I know those of you who know me are probably like are like – really YOU have a problem with this? I will admit I am pretty vocal about what I want IF I am comfortable with that person or if I’m at work. But there was a time that I did not vocalize any of my wants. I was always outspoken as a kid, faltered a little as a teenager, then recouped it in college. But during most of my 20’s and 30’s I was not outspoken. I was actually seriously quiet and non confrontational. I didn’t speak out when I needed help or when I wanted something.
Now in my 40’s I have found my voice again and no I’m not a confrontational person but I do not have a problem saying exactly what I think. Mostly to the detriment of myself. When I say that, what I mean is, I can sometimes overshare. Not in a gross, weird way (all examples I could think of were not appropriate – you’re welcome Mom) but now, I will tell you exactly how I feel. Unless… well unless I am not prepared for the conversation and get caught off guard. Then I need to really sit back and think things through. Que the over-analyzing part of my brain. Oh yay, love that part of my brain.
So yeah, I am outspoken and an over-analyzer. Great combination. LOL. But on the flip side I actually like who I am. I don’t mind that I occasionally (all the time) overshare. Although the people around me might not feel the same, since they are the ones who have to listen to me. Of course now I overshare on this platform too, so I subject everyone of you to this. You are Welcome. LOL
So, back to flirting. Yeah, I’m giving up on the theory of learning this. Sorry, to all the men dying to have me flirt with them, but it isn’t going to happen. I know I there are millions of you and I seriously hate to disappoint. You may on the other hand hear exactly what I’m thinking – which may or may not be a good thing. Just ask anyone who knows me. LOL